THIS is where I want to be.

"She said, 'Show me the world that's inside your head.'" - Angels & Airwaves

People tend to have distorted images of themselves. Do I have a skewed version of who I am?

I am just me.

I had a nice, normal childhood with few bumps. Perhaps that is why it is so hard for me to cope with the present.

"Oh let's go higher and higher. Hear the sound of the free." -Phil Wickham



There will be NO STONES.




"But prove yourselves doers of the word, and not merely hearers who delude themselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks at his natural face in a mirror; for once he has looked at himself and gone away, he has immediately forgotten what kind of person he was. But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man shall be blessed in what he does. If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this man's religion is worthless. This is pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father, to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world." -James 1: 22-27






THIS is where I want to be.



I just want to DANCE.

Why Every Child Should Have A Puppy,

inner turmoil

I’ve been boggled down by homework for the past week (mostly the past three days), and stressed out over a lot of things. This doesn’t help my already hesitant acceptance of my college career, so needless to say, I’ve been sleep-deprived and emotional.

I’m not a college girl. I have a lot of issues with higher education, and yet, here I am… at college.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of inner turmoil lately. It’s as if two completely different Hannahs have been fighting and yelling at each other inside of me and I don’t know which one to listen to. Questions like, “Who am I?” “What am I worth?” “What are my dreams and aspirations?” “Am I pursuing the things that I am supposed to?” were flying inside my head. It’s like two completely different realities and futures have been fighting to have their way, and I can only choose one. I can’t focus on my home work, I can’t focus on my film…

I felt like I was going to be stuck in this rut until I chose one, and only one voice.

I wanted to end this. So of course, I got up this morning, and not having my bike here at school with me, I took a walk with God. I asked Him to show me who I am in Him, and what I am supposed to do. I asked Him to give me a sign, or a peace or something. “Where am I called???” I yelled; mainly upset at myself because I can’t just be happy where I am. I always have to move move move; never be in one place for too long.

Then, in the quiet of the breeze, He whispered in my ear. Only two words; probably insignificant to anyone else who may have heard it. But to me, it was my future; my defining moment; my calling. He whispered: “The road.”

Obviously, that’s doesn’t tell me much; but in that moment, when those words riding on the lips of the wind met my ear, this overwhelming peace came over me. I didn’t care anymore about my major or my homework, or slowly dying at college. I didn’t even care what “the road” was. I just knew that is where I am called, and where I will end up. God will reveal to me along the way the steps I need to make to get there; all I’ve got to do is keep listening to the wind.

Day Fourteen:

I just want to dance. Speak in tongues. Do SOMETHING to explain this thing inside of me. Something big is coming. I can feel it. I just can't explain it in words.

Day Five:

Happy last day of christmas! "Caput apri defero, Reddens laudes Domino."

Day Four:

"And she will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for it is He who will save His people from their sins."

Day Three:

Bloody Mary, Bloody Mary.... No. I will not say it a third time...

Day Two:

Boar's Head and Yule Log Festival.

Day One:

I wish I knew how to quit you.