what next?

Yes. It's me. still floating in Limbo, but trying to find a course to make my way out of here.


I just returned from YWAM, as you know. I did my three months of Lecture Phase in San Francisco, then two months of outreach in Thailand and other parts of South East Asia. I got back about 2 1/2 weeks ago.

And no, I don't plan on going to college next (shocking, I know). But with that said, I now feel pressured to explain, in detail, my plans for the future. :) I must warn you, nothing is set in stone.

I have begun to study the Russian language. I plan on becoming fluent. Ukraine (and recently Russia) has been on my heart for a long time, and I think I will probably end up doing mission work of some sort over there someday. Whether it be living there permanently, or temporary, I don't know. I do believe, however, that I will end up living either in, or somewhere near Europe someday. But who knows.

I really want to go to Ukraine this summer for about a month, and check out the mission opportunities there, and hang out at different YWAM bases, but depending on money, we'll see if it works into God's plan. I also want to visit some friends in Switzerland.

I'm currently applying for staff at the YWAM base in San Francisco. If I get accepted I would like to staff there for at least two years, as a supported missionary. From there, I don't know. I'll probably end up doing a secondary school with YWAM. Something like a School of Worship or School of Evangelism or Biblical Studies or something. I don't know.

And these are just plans. Subject to change at any given time due to life-changing events or still, small voices in my ear. :)




But until then, I am in Kentucky. Trying to be content with the life that I live. Enjoying the time with my family, making lunch dates with old friends, and reaching out to new ones.


It is sometimes difficult to stay focused here, back "home". It's so weird to call it home. It doesn't feel like home at all anymore. But I couldn't tell you what it feels like, because I don't know. Just... weird... I sit around all day and mope. I eat too much food and am getting fat. I spend too much time on the computer, chatting it up on facebook, keeping in contact with my DTS family. Yes, my family. They are my family. The people I am the closest to on this stupid little planet.


But now, it is time to get my life together! I can't sit around, waiting for the next amazing thing to happen. Each day has just as much potential as the next! It's time to wake up early! Hop on that treadmill! Start calling around and get a job so I can go to Ukraine! I need to continue making the steps necessary to get me where I want to go, or I will be stuck in this place forever.



I want to be the person who pursues her dreams in the face of hardship and adversity when common sense tells me it is impossible.